Honestly I been through so many shitty relationships and i guess i would say got to know a lot of shitty guys that i wouldnt know love when it hit me... like  I was always used to just having my full force defense up about relationships and guys actually even friends. I DONT  trust easily like to me the biggest thing is actions. like if you tell me ill be there for you through everything? i expect to see that, im not just going to automatically believe you. Anyways though like I was saying, I wouldnt know what love is even  if it was in front of my face because of all those false promises and words that i got before, there actions showed me they were deceitful and assholes. Now though, I honestly think or maybe know that i found the man that surpassed my dreams, he keeps to his word and shows me everyday he loves me but the only thing wrong in this picture is that hes in California and me still stuck in Arkansas for the time being, hopefully and Im really hoping here, I hope we are in Cali by the end of this month... I need to start a fresh life over there without any of this shit head people of Arkansas. Im sorry but maybe I liked 5 people at the max here in all my 7 years of living here..... Im ready to be there, no matter what. Anyways this is my first blog and many more to come

Roxy